Having finished the breakfast, my husband went to read the book. I thought, “Why didn’t he ask me to read it together with him?” I stood at the door for quite a while, but he immersed himself in the book and didn’t notice me at all. I walked in the kitchen back and forth restlessly, anxious to see what was written in the book. I looked into the room, and he was still absorbed in reading the book. I really wanted to go into the room and read that book with him. But I thought to myself, “I have refused the preached by the brothers and sisters many times. If I ask him to let me read the book, would he rebuke me? If so, how embarrassed I would be!” At the thought of that, I pulled my head backward. I paced up and down in the outer room slowly, and when I remembered the words my husband read in the early morning, I grew more anxious, thinking, “I must go in to see what this book talks about.” So I walked to the door, but retreated again. Like a cat on hot bricks, I didn’t know what to do. At last, I steeled myself and thought, “Well, if he rebukes me, let him do it. I shouldn’t have rejected the gospel so stubbornly and have turned a deaf ear to his advice.” I got up the courage and walked into the room, and said embarrassedly, “Let’s read together!” He raised his head, showing a surprised look, and said joyfully, “OK! Come! Let’s read it together.” I was much moved, as he didn’t rebuke me as I had expected. My uneasiness now vanished. I was so happy and began to read the book with my husband. But what we read were not the words I overheard in the early morning. Just then my husband went out, and I hurriedly turned the pages back. I found the very words I wanted! I read these words aloud with joy: “Peter was greatly encouraged by Jesus’ words, because before Jesus was crucified He had said to him: ‘I am not of this world, and you too are not of this world.’ Later, when Peter reached a point of great pain, Jesus reminded him: ‘Peter, have you forgotten? I am not of the world, and it was only for My work that I departed earlier. You too are not of the world, have you forgotten? I have told you twice, do you not remember?’ Peter heard Him and said: ‘I have not forgotten!’ Jesus then said: ‘You once spent a happy time gathered with Me in heaven and a period of time by My side. You miss Me, and I miss you. Although the creatures are not worth mentioning in My eyes, how can I not love one who is innocent and lovable? Have you forgotten My promise? You must accept My commission on earth; you must fulfill the task that I entrusted you with. One day I will certainly lead you to be by My side’” (“How Peter Came to Know Jesus” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). I read these words over and over again. The more I read, the more I felt these words didn’t deviate from . I wondered why the senior leaders said the message was departure from the Bible that God has come back and done new work and spoken new words, and why they said that departure from the Bible meant departure from the Lord’s way. I prayed in my heart, “O God, what is all this about? May You enlighten me and guide me, so that I can understand Your will.”
Afterward, I read these words of : “For many years, people’s traditional means of belief (that of Christianity, one of the world’s three major religions) has been to read the Bible; departure from the Bible is not the belief in the Lord, departure from the Bible is an evil cult, and heresy, and even when people read other books, the foundation of these books must be the explanation of the Bible. Which is to say, if you say you believe in the Lord, then you must read the Bible, you must eat and drink the Bible, and outside the Bible you must not worship any book that does not involve the Bible. If you do, then you are betraying God. From the time when there was the Bible, people’s belief in the Lord has been the belief in the Bible. Instead of saying people believe in the Lord, it is better to say they believe in the Bible; rather than saying they have begun reading the Bible, it is better to say they have begun believing in the Bible; and rather than saying they have returned before the Lord, it would be better to say they have returned before the Bible. In this way, people worship the Bible as if it were God, as if it were their lifeblood and losing it would be the same as losing their life. People see the Bible as being as high as God, and there are even those who see it as higher than God” (“Concerning the Bible (1)” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). s touched my heart. “Am I not like what God’s words say? Looking back, I have been holding to the Bible like this since I began to believe in the Lord. I see the Bible as my lifeblood. Every time after I read it, I would put it on a high place so that my children couldn’t touch it. I consider it above everything else, and even think that departure from the Bible means betraying the Lord. But, is it wrong?” I read on with a seeking heart, from “Concerning the Bible (1)” to “Concerning the Bible (4).” The more I read, the more I became enlightened. Almighty God’s words made me completely understand this: Actually, the Bible is nothing more than a historical record of God’s work, a testament of the previous two stages of God’s work. The Old Testament records Jehovah’s work from the time of creation until the end of the Age of Law, and the New Testament records the ’ work in the Age of Grace. God’s work is always new and never old, and is ceaselessly progressing onward. Today God has done a new stage of work outside the Bible—the work of the Age of Kingdom, which is the last stage of work of God’s for man. These three stages of work are done by one God. Then I thought, “That’s right! God is so almighty, so wise; it is impossible for Him to have just done the limited work recorded in the Bible. Besides, I have personally seen from Almighty God’s word that God’s word and work in the last days do not deny the Bible but go higher and deeper on the basis of the work of the Age of Law and the Age of Grace recorded in the Bible, and are in line with man’s actual needs all the more.” God’s word says: “You need to understand why you can no longer read the Bible, why there is another work outside the Bible, and why God has begun another, greater work outside the Bible, rather than seeking a newer, more detailed practice within its pages—you must understand all of these things. You need to understand how the old and the new work differ. Though you don’t read the Bible, you have to be able to analyze it. Otherwise you will still worship the Bible, and thus you can hardly enter into the new work and achieve change. Now that there is a higher way, why study the obsolete and lower way? Now that there is new word, new work, why live in the old history record? The new word can supply you; it shows that this is new work. The old records cannot sate you, cannot satisfy your present desires; it proves that they are history, not today’s work. The highest way is the newest work. And when there is new work, the old way, no matter how high, becomes history to be recalled by men. No matter how valuable it is as a reference, it is still an old way. The old way is history, even if recorded in the holy book. The new way is reality, even if it is not mentioned on a single page of the holy book. This way can save you and transform you, for it is the work of the ” (“Concerning the Bible (1)” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). After reading these words, I suddenly came to understand why I grew increasingly passive in spirit although I held to the Bible all the time and why the brothers and sisters became ever weak and even stopped attending the meetings although they didn’t depart from the Bible under my leading; why those brothers and sisters who accepted the kingdom gospel of Almighty God were, however, full of faith, and no matter how I treated them, they were not disheartened but kept coming to preach the gospel to me again and again. The reason was this: I have held to the old way and have long lost the work of the Holy Spirit; whereas the brothers and sisters of the Church of Almighty God are guided by the new way and watered by God’s new words, thereby gaining the work of the Holy Spirit. This is how the new way and the old way differ.
At that time, I had a mixed feeling of happiness and sadness. I was happy because although I was so disobedient and resistant to Him, God not only didn’t abandon me but also allowed me to hear His voice through a special way—letting my husband read His words to me. That was really for me. And I was sad because every time the brothers and sisters came from afar to preach the gospel to me, I ignored them, and I even spoke cold words when they fellowshiped with my husband. Thinking of this, I felt remorseful and couldn’t help shedding tears. I knelt down and prayed to God, “O Almighty God, I know I am wrong. I’m willing to give up the Bible, keep up with Your new work, and listen to Your words in the new age. I won’t oppose You and ruin my life because of clinging to my notions and imaginations. O God, I’m resolved to cooperate with You and bring those true believers in You to Your house, so as to make up for my indebtedness to You. Thank God! May all the glory be to Almighty God!”