In March, it was still cold. Hit by a gust of cold wind on the face, Yang Fan couldn’t help but shudder from the cold. She rode her electric bike along the road where there were fewer and fewer pedestrians. The very thought of meeting her long-parted husband and son made her inevitably feel somewhat excited. And immediately, a string of questions echoed through her mind: How is my husband’s work? Has my son gotten taller? Has there been any improvement in his study? Without me, how do they live? …
At the thought of this, Yang Fan felt especially awful, full of mixed feelings of joy and sorrow. Since being pursued by the CCP government in 2012 because of her belief in God, she had begun to lead a homeless life. As a result, her home was no longer like a home. From then on, her young son lost maternal love; her husband had to take care of their son by himself at home, and moreover, he was forced to deal with the interrogation and interference from the CCP police. At this moment, how Yang Fan should like to immediately go home to cherish her son and care her husband, restoring her home to the previous one full of love. But given the situation that CCP government has been unceasing in its persecution of believers in God and there are spies of the CCP police everywhere, it was very clear to her that she would be arrested by the CCP police before her home was restored if going home dangerously. In such a case, it would bring greater suffering to her family.
When Yang Fan thought of this, her tears flowed down her cheeks. She couldn’t help crying out in her heart, “We believers in God pursue the truth and follow the right path. What’s wrong with that? It is right and proper for us to worship God. The CCP government actually persecutes us like this to such an extent that I must separate from my son and husband.” Then Yang Fan counted up the years, and found she had been away from home for five years due to the CCP government’s persecution. Living away from home, she had a profound understanding of the following passage of : “For thousands of years this has been the land of filth, it is unbearably dirty, misery abounds, ghosts roam its every corner, tricking and deceiving, making groundless accusations, being ruthless and vicious, trampling this ghost town and leaving it littered with dead bodies; the stench of decay covers the land and pervades the air, and it is heavily guarded. Who can see the world beyond the skies? The devil tightly trusses all of man’s body, it puts out both his eyes, and seals his lips firmly shut. The king of devils has rampaged for several thousand years, right up until today, when it still keeps a close watch on the ghost town, as if it were an impenetrable palace of demons; this pack of watchdogs, meanwhile, stare with glaring eyes, deeply fearful that God will catch them unawares and wipe them all out, leaving them without a place of peace and happiness. How could the people of a ghost town such as this have ever seen God? Have they ever enjoyed the dearness and loveliness of God? What appreciation have they of the matters of the human world? Who of them can understand God’s eager will? Small wonder, then, that God incarnate remains completely hidden: In a dark society such as this, where the demons are merciless and inhumane, how could the king of devils, who kills people in the blink of an eye, tolerate the existence of a God who is lovely, kind, and also holy? How could it applaud and cheer the arrival of God? These lackeys! They repay kindness with hate, they have long since disdained God, they abuse God, they are savage in the extreme, they have not the slightest regard for God, they plunder and pillage, they have lost all conscience, and have not a trace of kindness, and they tempt the innocent into senselessness. Forefathers of the ancient? Beloved leaders? They all oppose God! Their meddling has left all beneath heaven in a state of darkness and chaos!” (“Work and Entry (8)”). Ever since God began to do His work of the last days, the CCP government has continually been persecuting, obstructing and disturbing His work, and arresting and seeking to kill God’s chosen people. This causes countless believers in God have been arrested, imprisoned and tortured, and countless Christians’ families have been torn to pieces…. As to Yang Fan, she just is one of these Christians who have suffered the pursuit and persecution of the CCP government because of their belief in God. During these years, she had been on the run and hiding herself here and there, suffering considerable hardships and shedding countless tears in this ghost town covered by dark clouds. Without God’s guidance, she would have not followed until now.
“Beep-beep! Beep-beep!” Her thoughts were interrupted by a burst of honk. She wiped the tears away. She thought: When meeting my husband and son, I cannot shed tears before them. I’ll communicate God’s intentions with them, so that they know only God is our reliance and therefore we need to rely on Him to continue our future path with strength no matter what dangers and adversities come upon us…. With this in mind, Yang Fan wore a resolute expression. Before she knew it, she had already arrived to a crossing. She slowed down her electric bike and looked around habitually. After making sure nobody was tracking, she turned to a small path through the field with an easy mind. Not far away, she saw her husband and son waiting for her there.
As soon as Yang Fan stopped her electric bike, her son run to her and threw himself into her arms, asking apprehensively, “Mom, why are you so late? Dad and I have waited for you for a long time. Are there evil policemen tracking you?” Seeing her son became taller and more sensible, Yang Fan felt gratified. She touched her son’s head lightly, tears in her eyes. Then she crouched down and said to her son smiling, “Don’t worry. The evil policemen didn’t follow me.” After that, she raised her head and looked at her husband. She found her husband, in his thirties, had another few streaks of grey. At this time, Yang Fan tried hard to hold back her tears.
The family of three chatted and showed concern for each other for a while. Seeing the mother and son giving affection to each other, the husband hesitated and then said, “How about going home to stay a night when it is dark and there is nobody outside the door?” As soon as his father finished his words, the son said in a panic, “Mom, you mustn’t go home!” And then he turned to his father saying, “Dad, have you forgotten that the evil police often came to our house and arrested Mom? What if Mom is arrested after going home? In that case, I’ll have no Mom.” Looking at her son’s uneasy expression, Yang Fan asked her husband, “In this period of time, the police have come to our house to search for me? Did that give our son a big shock?” The husband knitted his brows and nodded, saying, “Yes. In that year, the police broke in and forcefully searched in the middle of the night. Our son was startled out of his sleep by them then. Failing to find you, they still didn’t give up, so they searched our house thoroughly. And several evil policemen crowded around our son and questioned him about your whereabouts. They also arranged for our neighbors to watch our house. From that time on, it cast a shadow on our son, so that he will feel scared once hearing the noise in the night. Oh, yeah. Recently, the police came our house to find you several more times, and they also went to our mother’s house to ask your whereabouts. Alas, our son is right. You’d better not go home. At least, you are safe outside for the moment. Besides, on the run from the police, you have the care and protection of God, and the help and care of our brothers and sisters. We feel at ease.” And he added, “Just perform your duty properly to repay God’s love. Don’t worry about everything in our home. I will take good care of our son. On top of that, we’re accompanied by God. I will pray and rely on God with our son when meeting difficulties.” The son nearby said, “Right! Mom, you can ease up. I’ll listen to Dad, and often pray to God.”
What her husband and son had said surprised Yang Fan. They had more strength and faith than she imagined. She deeply knew this was all due to God’s protection! She gave thanks to God from the bottom of her heart. Then, Yang Fan enjoined them, “The environment now becomes more serious. The CCP government investigates openly and inquires secretly everywhere. Many brothers and sisters have been forced to be taken photos and arrested. Nevertheless, the work of God’sis rapidly spreading to foreign countries through the Internet. The more the CCP resists crazily, the more we should not be weak and negative then—this is God testing us. So we should have faith to God. At ordinary times, you must often come close to God and read His words more….”
In the fields, with spring breeze, pale green wheat seedlings were waving their straight bodies, full of vitality. As the minutes ticked away, all three of them encouraged and comforted each other….
In the evening sun, Yang Fan checked her watch. She knew she could not stay there any longer. The longer she stayed there, the more danger she would be in. After saying good-bye to them, Yang Fan mounted on her electric bike for departure. This moment, the son was reluctant to part with his mother with his eyes shining with tears, yet he still enjoined his mother again with his fresh young voice, “Mom, remember, you mustn’t go home!” After Yang Fan heard her son’s words, her tears spilled from her eyes one more time. She nodded to them, and then rode away with the setting sun.
On the way, a hymn of God’s word Yang Fan often sang repeatedly echoed in her ears: “As a created being, you should of course worship God and pursue a meaningful life, pursue a meaningful life. As a human being, you should expend for God and endure all suffering, endure all suffering. You should gladly and assuredly accept the little suffering you are subjected to today and live a meaningful life, like Job, like Peter. You are people who pursue the right path, those who seek improvement. You are people who rise up in the nation of the great red dragon, those whom God calls righteous. Isn’t that the most meaningful life?”
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