By Lili, Hong Kong
In 2015, my friend preached the kingdomof God to me. She fellowshiped with me: “When man was created by God in the beginning, man had no sin. Later, mankind were enticed by Satan and ate the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and then they had poison of Satan and lived under Satan’s influence; gradually, they were corrupted deeper and deeper by Satan, completely losing the normal human likeness. For example, in order to get profits and status, people scheme against each other, envy and strife with each other, scramble for fame and gain, living in suffering. For the sake of saving us from Satan’s dark influence, God personally becomes flesh to come among mankind and expresses truth to save us, so that we can live under His guidance and gain His protection and blessings. This is and salvation for us.” After hearing my friend’s fellowship, I had a little knowledge of God’s work, and of God’s love and salvation for man; I felt so touched and wanted to know more of God. Therefore, after several fellowships with my friend, I formally attended the life. In church, I saw brothers and sisters were all full of love. No matter who was weak or made mistakes, they all helped and sustained one another in a loving heart. In church, when brothers and sisters encountered matters, they could pursue the truth, reflect and know their own deficiencies according to , and seek truth to resolve their own problems. In the Church of , I felt as if I were in another world, feeling very peaceful, secure, released and free. However, some days later, unexpected things came upon me. …
One day, my over 2-year-old little daughter suddenly had a fever. She took medicine for several days but it didn’t work at all; finally she was hospitalized for constant high fever. During this period, once my daughter sneezed, her nose would bleed. I asked the doctor about my daughter’s condition, but he said that the cause of the illness was still unknown. The doctor’s answer made me very nervous and anxious, but I had no other ways, and could only helplessly wait for the result of treatment. Even more unfortunately, my husband was also hospitalized for illness on the fourth day after my daughter was hospitalized. The doctor said that my husband’s condition was very serious: He not only needed to have a multiple blood test, but also needed to undergo a bone marrow examination. When I heard these words, I felt heart broken, and was very sad and painful, thinking: Since I have believed in God, why do I still encounter such things? Why doesn’t God protect me? Why have my family been hospitalized one after another? We have two children to take care of, and my husband needs to go to work to support our family. But now he is also seriously ill; if he is struck down, how can my family live on? This hard blow made my heart broken, and I was terribly upset, feeling hopeless. Just when I lived in pain, perplexity, and darkness and lost my direction, I suddenly remembered God’s words: “Of everything that occurs in the universe, there is nothing that I do not have the final say in. What exists that is not in My hands? All that I say goes….” God’s words, like a light, lighted up my way and made my heavy heart feel released so much. Right, the universe and all things are in God’s hand. I should rely on and look up to God!
Later on, brothers and sisters in the church knew my difficulty in living. Some sisters helped me take care of my son, and some read God’s words for me and communicatedto assist and comfort me. One passage of God’s word says, “Almighty God, the Head of all things, wields His kingly power from His throne. He rules over the universe and all things and He is guiding us on the whole earth. We shall often be close to Him, and come before Him in quietness; never shall we miss a single moment, and there are things to learn at all times. The environment around us as well as the people, matters and objects, all are permitted by His throne. Do not have a complaining heart, or God will not bestow His grace upon you. When sickness happens it is due to God’s love and His good intentions are surely behind it. Even when your body endures suffering, take no ideas from Satan. Praise God in the midst of illness and enjoy God in the midst of your praise. Do not lose heart in the face of illness, keep seeking and never give up, and God shall shine His light to you. How faithful was Job? Almighty God is an all-powerful physician! To dwell in sickness is to be sick, but to dwell in the spirit is to be well. If you have but one breath, God will not let you die.”
From God’s words, I knew: God is almighty and all-wise; God created all things, and He also rules over them; everyone’s future and fate, birth, aging, sickness, and death are all in God’s hand. Today, encountering these things is that God is testing my faith in Him, seeing whether I can standfor Him. After ’s will, I was willing to commit all my difficulties to God’s hand; no matter what the result was, I would not complain against and misunderstand God, instead I would to Him, rely on Him, and obey His sovereignty and arrangement. Since then, I often came before God and pray to Him: “God, You know I am immature and ignorant, lacking the true faith in You. May You give me faith and strength to let me be willing to obey You.” After my prayer, I felt very secure and peaceful.
Once in a meeting, a sister read a passage of God’s word for me: “God works, God cares for a person, looks upon a person, and Satan dogs His every step. Whoever God favors, Satan also watches, trailing along behind. If God wants this person, Satan would do everything in its power to obstruct God, using various evil ways to tempt, harass and wreck the work God does in order to achieve its hidden objective. What is its objective? It does not want God to have anyone; it wants all those that God wants, to possess them, control them, to take charge of them so they worship it, so they commit evil acts alongside it. Is this not Satan’s sinister motive? Normally, you often say that Satan is so evil, so bad, but have you seen it? You can only see how bad man is and has not seen in reality how bad Satan actually is. But have you seen it in this issue concerning Job? (Yes.) This issue has made Satan’s hideous countenance and its essence very clear. Satan is at war with God, trailing along behind Him. Its objective is to demolish all the work God wants to do, to possess and control those whom God wants, to completely extinguish those whom God wants. If they are not extinguished, then they come to Satan’s possession to be used by it—this is its objective.”
The sister fellowshiped, “The devil Satan is just like a roaring lion walking about, and wants to devour us through all kinds of temptations. In fact, all those things we’ve encountered are the disturbances of Satan, and are the battles of the spiritual world. God works to save us, but when we want to abandon and rebel against Satan to return before God, Satan is unwilling to be defeated. It tries every possible means to harm, disturb, and deceive us, and it even injures our families with malicious means—making them encounter sickness, making us fall into temptations to misunderstand and blame God. Its purpose is to make us deny God, betray God, and lose, so that we return to its domain. If we become passive and lose our , we precisely fall into Satan’s scheme. Thinking back, when Job was tempted, Satan used the most malicious means to torture and afflict Job; it not only took away all his property and children, but even caused sore boils all over his body, leaving him in terrible pain. However, Job still could bear witness to God even when he was extremely grieved, the key of which was his true faith in God. So, in such an environment, we should know one reason is that Satan’s temptations come upon us, and that another one is that God wants to test whether we have true faith in God, and to see whether we can come before God, getting close to Him and relying on Him. As a matter of fact, the reason that we become passive and weak and even lose our faith in God once we encounter matters contrary to our conceptions is because there are impurities in our faith, which gives Satan the opportunity to harm us. God’s word says, ‘Most people for the sake of peace and other benefits. Unless it is to your benefit, you don’t believe in God, and if you can’t receive s, you fall into a sulk. How could this be your true stature? When it comes to inevitable family incidents (children falling ill, husbands going into hospital, poor crop yields, persecution of family members, and so on), you can’t even make it through these things that often happen in day-to-day life. When such things happen, you’re thrown into a panic, you don’t know what to do—and most of the time, you complain about God. You complain that God’s words tricked you, that God’s work has messed you around. Do you not have such thoughts? Do you think such things happen among you only rarely? You spend every day living amid such events. You don’t give the slightest thought to the success of your faith in God, and how to satisfy God’s will. Your true stature is too small, even smaller than a little chick’s. … Your belly is stuffed full of complaints, and you sometimes don’t go to assemblies or eat and drink the words of God because of this, you likely become negative for a great length of time.’”
After the sister read God’s words, she said: “God’s words point out our wrong views of seeking blessings in our faith in God. We always think: As long as we believe in God, God should bless us, and make sure that everything is peaceful and goes well for us. Once we encounter untoward things, we will immediately ask for God’s help and protection, and if God doesn’t solve our difficulties or problems, we will lose our faith in Him, and misunderstand and blame Him in our heart. Satan just uses our fatal weakness—believing in God only for blessing, to attack and disturb us, sowing discord between us and God. If we can’t see through Satan’s schemes from the beginning to the end, we will be captured and devoured by Satan.”
After hearing the sister’s fellowship, I immediately felt much more brightened within, knowing that the things that come upon my family contained Satan’s schemes, and that Satan was disturbing and harming me. And meanwhile, God used this chance to reveal my wrong viewpoint of faith in God so as to purify and change impurities in my faith. So, I made an obedient prayer to God silently: No matter whether my little daughter and my husband can be cured of their sickness, I won’t have any complaint, just wishing to experience God’s work and obey His orchestration and arrangement.
When I put aside my wrong viewpoint of faith in God and was willing to, unexpected things happened. A few days later, the condition of my husband and daughter gradually became better, and my husband didn’t take the bone marrow examination. After a one-week stay in the hospital, they recovered and were discharged. Thank Almighty God for His wondrous protection.
After I experienced this issue, I had some discernment about the evil substance of how Satan afflicts and corrupts us. At the same time, I also saw God’s love and salvation for me. God used such an environment to change my wrong viewpoint of faith in God, and when I changed my view and was willing to obey God’s orchestration and arrangement, I saw God’s wondrous deeds again. Thanks be to God! From now on, no matter what matters I encounter that do not match my conceptions, I am willing to rely on God, to seek the truth and obey God, striving to stand testimony to praise and honor God.
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