By Mengfu, China
The weather of the north was already chilly in November. However, in a small farmhouse, an air of coldness was much suffocating, as if it had been freezing winter there.
From the farmhouse came a roar of a fifty-year-old man, “You poor guy! You want to marry my daughter? Dream on! Quickly, sign your name on the guarantee and promise not to communicate with my daughter anymore.” The man held a piece of paper and asked the boy, who stood quaking with fear, to sign his name on it. With tears in his coward eyes, the boy looked down at the ground and said nothing. The girl standing aside shouted at her father, “Dad, I don’t mind how poor he is. Fortunate or unfortunate, it’s my own business. I shall stay with him.” “Shut up! It’s not your place to speak here.” The father rebuked his daughter arbitrarily and then turned to the boy, snapping, “Sign! Hurry! Otherwise, you will see what awaits you.” Having spoken, he thrust the paper and pen into the boy’s hands. The guy picked up the pen with a trembling hand and scrawled his own name on the paper, his eyes wet. Seeing the boy’s signature, this middle-aged man gave a self-satisfied smirk on his face. Then he handed the paper and pen to his daughter to sign. The girl slapped them down on the ground angrily and pulled the boy, running out of the room. Behind them came her father’s oaths and mother’s cries …
This girl’s name was Xiu and the boy’s name was Zhuzi. Zhuzi was handsome and very good at cheering up Xiu. Whenever Xiu was sorrowful and confided her trouble to Zhuzi, he would soon lift her spirits by a heart-to-heart talk. Xiu was very happy being with Zhuzi. And he was everything to her.
Xiu pulled Zhuzi forward and tumbled into a deserted hut in a field. She said to him tearfully, “Zhuzi, take me away from here. I’ll be with you for the rest of my life.”
That night, they took the train to Xinjiang Province. Sitting in the train, Xiu held Zhuzi’s hands tightly, wearing a happy and sweet smile on her face.
Time was flying. It was another golden harvest season. Xiu came back to her parent’s home, with her tender baby girl in her arms. Looking at their daughter and granddaughter, Xiu’s parents sighed: It’s no using crying over the spilled milk. Looking around the house before her, Xiu compared it with that of Zhuzi, she felt his family was really shabby: Hardly any of the furniture was decent in rooms and the plaster dropped Poop-poop from the wall at nights. Sometimes, Xiu would miss the old days in her parents’ home: Her father did business in the town and indulged her in pocket money. Few people could equal them in their family circumstances…. Recollections, however, just flashed across her mind. She was satisfied now as long as she could stay with her loved one a whole life long. Xiu didn’t covet the material pleasure; she only wished to stick herself to Zhuzi in life and death.
Later, a second boy was born to the family, which made their life even harder. So, Zhuzi discussed with Xiu about going out for work in order that she and their two children could live well. Xiu was so moved by Zhuzi’s words and saw him off with tears. Thereafter, she, a weak, fragile woman, shoulder the heavy family burden herself.
It was not soon known that Zhuzi broke the law at work and was sentenced for seven years, Xiu sobbed her heart out at this news. Missing and worries to Zhuzi made her feebler than ever. Not only must she take care of the young children, but she had to earn money to support their family. Despite exhaustion, once Xiu received letters from Zhuzi in the jail, she would be full of unfailing strength all over. She held the letter to her breast, mumbling to herself, “No matter how much suffering, no matter how many difficulties, I will wait until you return and stay with you for a whole life.” And so, Xiu lived and numbered the days difficultly … Unexpectedly, Zhuzi was released two years ahead of time. Xiu rejoiced greatly. Zhuzi blamed himself and said to Xiu with tears, “Xiu, I was much indebted to you. I can’t repay you all my life. I’ll care for you and love you with my heart to make up the lost love to you. You’ll be the happiest woman in the world….” Hearing these warm words, Xiu felt so happy that she thought all her efforts were much worthwhile and didn’t feel wronged at all. She had been more loyal to Zhuzi since then.
In order to support the whole family, Zhuzi set out again on his long journey to make a living, while Xiu stayed at home to take care of their children. At first, Zhuzi would come back once every six months to see Xiu and their children because of missing them, but later, he came back only once a year. Xiu understood that it was very hard for Zhuzi to make money outside, so she didn’t complain about that. But inadvertently, Xiu noticed that the villagers looked at her with a peculiar gaze. She was puzzled over it and didn’t know why.
One day, a relative told Xiu that Zhuzi had an affair. Hearing the word, Xiu kept shaking her head and didn’t believe that rumor. She was sure that Zhuzi couldn’t do such base and sordid thing. But as Zhuzi didn’t come back home for a long time and more and more gossip reached Xiu’s ears, Xiu began to feel unease and decided to go to Zhuzi’s place to see what actually happened.
Xiu started on her journey to the distant place and arrived at the address of Zhuzi. Excited and nervous, she didn’t know what would happen to her, feeling as if a rabbit were hidden in her heart. After adjusting her mind, Xiu pushed the door open and went in. At the sight of Zhuzi, she trotted toward him and asked, “Zhuzi, you haven’t come back home for so long time. Have you been busy? I heard that you are staying with another woman here. But I don’t believe that. I want you to tell me so.” Zhuzi looked downward and made no response. Instantly, Xiu’s heart fell by his silence; tears rolled down her cheeks. She slapped him on the face angrily. Feeling guilty, Zhuzi didn’t dare to see her and ran away. Xiu collapsed on the floor and was almost faint from the heart-piercing pain. She never expected that Zhuzi, who had made promises to her and sworn to the end of the world with her, became so cruel and ungrateful. In her life, he was her only one and she couldn’t live without him. In no way could she let the woman steal her Zhuzi. So, Xiu decided to stay there and watched him, not allowing him to contact with the woman. But it was to no avail, Zhuzi still tried different methods to stay with the woman behind her back. One day, the woman said to Xiu, bold and confident, “You take care of your children at home, I take care of Zhuzi here, we don’t interfere with each other, isn’t it good?” Hearing that, Xiu cursed the woman in a rage; Zhuzi, however, stood there saying nothing and seemed to have accepted it earlier.
Xiu’s heart was completely empty. Standing against the mountain, she cried, shouted, and roared, echoing from the other side of the mountain was the roar and wail of her misery. In depression, Xiu returned to her parents’ home, staggering into the bed and sleeping for several days. She felt her heart was being cut into pieces bit by bit. Seeing that Xiu lived in extreme sorrow, her mother felt so sad and testified the of the to her. She read a passage of God’s word to Xiu, “The Almighty has mercy on these people who suffer deeply. At the same time, He is fed up with these people who have no consciousness, because He has to wait too long for the answer from humans. He desires to seek, seek your heart and your spirit. He wants to bring you food and water and to awaken you, so you are no longer thirsty, no longer hungry. When you are weary and when you begin to feel the desolation of this world, do not be perplexed, do not cry. Almighty God, the Watcher, will embrace your arrival any time. He is watching by your side, waiting for you to turn back. He is waiting for the day your memory suddenly recovers: becoming conscious of the fact that you came from God, somehow and somewhere once lost, falling unconscious on the roadside, and then, unknowingly having a father. You further realize that the Almighty has been watching there, awaiting your return all along” (“The Sighing of the Almighty”). Hearing the word, Xiu felt a pair of soft hands was consoling her heart; the piercing pain was suddenly much relieved. Then she sat up in bed and thought about when the man she loved most betrayed and left her, she lived in the abyss of suffering, unable to free herself from it, and didn’t know how to walk her future path. God, however, never abandoned her but was watching by her side and used His love to comfort her broken heart through her most painful time. Xiu was moved by God’s love and involuntarily shed her tears.
Her broken heart found great comfort from God. She wished to cherish this love and warmth. Later, Xiu read another passage of God’s word: “One after another, all these trends carry an evil influence that continually degenerates man, that lowers their morals and their quality of character more and more, to the extent that we can even say the majority of people now have no integrity, no humanity, neither do they have any conscience, much less any reason. … The majority of people, however, in the midst of their unawareness, will still be continually infected, assimilated and attracted by this kind of trend, until they all unknowingly and involuntarily accept it, and are all submerged in and controlled by it. For man who is not of sound body and mind, who never knows what is truth, who cannot tell the difference between positive and negative things, these kinds of trends one after another make them all willingly accept these trends, the life view, the life philosophies and values that come from Satan. They accept what Satan tells them on how to approach life and the way to live that Satan ‘bestows’ on them. They have not the strength, neither do they have the ability, much less the awareness to resist” (“God Himself, the Unique VI”). “Man has been so corrupted by Satan that he no longer has the appearance of man.” This phrase has now gained slight recognition from the vast majority of people. It is so said because the ‘recognition’ here is merely superficial acknowledgment as opposed to true knowledge. … All of you are familiar with the word ‘betrayal’ because most people have done something to betray others before, such as a husband betraying his wife, a wife betraying her husband, a son betraying his father, a daughter betraying her mother, a slave betraying his master, friends betraying each other, relatives betraying each other, sellers betraying buyers, and so forth. All of these examples contain the essence of betrayal. In short, betrayal is a form of behavior in which one breaks a promise, violates moral principles, or goes against human ethics, and which demonstrates a loss of humanity. As a human being, no matter if you remember you have ever done something to betray another or if you have already betrayed others many times, generally speaking, if you are born in this world then you have done something to betray the truth. … This is why I have summarized it in the following statement: Betrayal is man’s nature. This nature is the natural enemy of each person being compatible with Me” (“A Very Serious Problem: Betrayal (1)”).
God’s word touched Xiu’s heart deeply and made her understand where her suffering was coming from. It turned out that people strayed from God, and thus lived under Satan’s domain and were trampled by Satan so that we had completely lost our humanity and were possessed of a nature that betrayed God. Take Xiu for example. She had done everything for Zhuzi, but the old vow he had made vanished like a soap bubble, only leaving herself the boundless sufferings. Was it not because people were corrupted by Satan and had the nature of betrayal? To Xiu’s eyes, if she was kind to Zhuzi and paid all price for him, then he shouldn’t and couldn’t betray her. But it was just her wishful thinking. Because we all have the nature of betrayal, we will do things that break a promise or betrays our feeling at all times and places once circumstances are suitable. The social trends today bring us nothing but negative things so that everyone esteems evil, enjoys the pleasures of sin and takes it as honor. On the contrary, the positive things are disparaged, discriminated against, and trodden by people. Everyone considers only their fleshly enjoyments, completely losing their conscience and reason. What an evil era it is! If we lose God’s care and protection, or lack the truth or have no ability to overcome sin, we can never resist the poison and corrosion resulting from the society trends, instead, we can’t help but do the things that betray our conscience and morality. Xiu’s husband betrayed her, wasn’t it because he was influenced and infected by social trends and poisoned by Satan’s poison? Thinking of that, Xiu felt greatly relieved—Her husband was also the victim and sacrifice of this evil trend. Little by little, Xiu put aside her hatred to Zhuzi.
Later, Xiu read more of God’s word, “God loves mankind, cares for mankind, and shows concern for mankind, as well as constantly and unceasingly provides for mankind. He never feels in His heart that this is additional work or something that deserves a lot of credit. Nor does He feel that saving humanity, supplying them, and granting them everything, is making a huge contribution to mankind. He simply provides for mankind quietly and silently, in His own way and through His own essence and what He has and is. No matter how much provision and how much help mankind receives from Him, God never thinks about nor tries to take credit. This is determined by the essence of God, and is also precisely a true expression of God’s disposition” (“God’s Work, God’s Disposition, and God Himself I”). Contemplating God’s words, Xiu appreciated God’s selfless love to mankind: God quietly gives all to mankind, never demanding man to repay Him, nor trying to take credit or showing Himself off. God’s love is selfless and holy. His disposition is beautiful and kind. When Xiu was frustrated by the failure of marriage and discouraged with life, it was God’s word that consoled her broken heart, brought her life hope and light and made her experience God’s love and salvation to mankind. Xiu saw that God’s word is like the morning star that illuminates the direction of her progress, making her soul find a haven to rely on. Only God can bring man the real peace and happiness, only God is the one who man can trust and look up to, and only God loves man the most. As Xiu used her heart to understand the heart’s voice of the Creator, she never felt sadness and pain, but experienced that God is the only One to whom she can give her entire life.
Under the watering of God’s word, Xiu gains growth of life and lives more happily and joyfully than ever, because she has found her genuine love.
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