by Tiexin, Taiwan
In November 2002, on one occasion I was admitted into the church, was baptized and became a Christian of the Local Church. At that time, a brother told me, “The preaching of the Local Church is the loftiest and the truth here is the purest. We are the called-out congregation from the world and the people most blessed by the Lord.” All his words made me feel that I indeed enjoyed a great blessing in that I could have meetings in the Local Church. Immediately a sense of superiority emerged from my heart.
After I joined the church, the responsible brother often said to us, “We are sinners and often unable to walk the way of the Lord. So, in order to remove the old man and put on a new one, every day we must call upon the Lord’s name, read The Holy Word for Morning Revival. By praying, studying, reciting and preaching, we’ll receive the Lord’s words within. And then, the Spirit and our spirit are mingled together as one Spirit; the Lord will within us do the work of changing the life disposition of man, such as regeneration, transformation, conformation, and glorification, and so forth. As a result, we’ll have the opportunity to become overcomers, and enter into the new heaven and new earth, and the new Jerusalem.” Thinking that I was able to become an overcomer, enter into the new heaven and new earth and enjoy the grace from the Lord, I was very excited in my heart. Especially, each time when I, in the assembly held by the church, heard the brothers and sisters on the platform share their gratitude and promises to the Lord one by one, I would be infected with their passionate lectures, full of strength in my inner heart. In my opinion, only the preaching of the Local Church was the highest. As long as I pursued according to the way the brother in the church led us on, I would certainly enter into the new heaven and new earth in the end. Therefore, in the days that followed, I took an active part in every big or small gathering, such as the daily morning watch, the Lord’s day, group meetings, blending and video trainings, and so on. Moreover, I doubly read The Holy Word for Morning Revival and , and shared them with the brothers and sisters. So that I could achieve changes in my disposition soon and enter into the new heaven and new earth prepared by God for us.
However, two years later, I gradually came to realize: Each time I attended the assembly held by the church, the atmosphere was electric; we called on the ’s name, with the blood boiling, as if we could offer up money, time and even everything for the Lord. However, when we came down to earth, we would lose enthusiasm in a few days. Some brothers and sisters were full of zest when they listened to sermons, but speaking of preaching the gospel for the Lord, they would find sorts of excuses to refuse. Faced with this situation, I ever asked the responsible brother, “How to solve the problem that we speak catchphrases loudly but cannot practice what we said when they need to be carried out? How can man’s disposition be changed?” The brother answered, “They are not simple matters but require a whole lifetime. We are still in the process of transformation. Provided that you aspire to grow in life, you should pay more price and ask the Lord to bestow grace and wisdom upon you.” Later on, I found when I met with the people who were not in accordance with my concept in my life, I would unconsciously feel loathing toward them in my heart. The Lord taught us to love others as ourselves. I not only couldn’t love others, but often couldn’t help loathing them. I knew this was not right, but I could find no solution. Hence, several years having passed, I still lived in sin and didn’t have any change in my disposition, though I read The Holy Word for Morning Revival and called on the Lord’s name every day. I even felt more and more confused about the way of restoring harmony in the spirit and toward a changed disposition. I thought: How on earth does our spirit mingle with the Spirit? How are the words of the Lord worked into me? How can I have a real transformation on earth? Concerning these issues, I ever asked other brothers and sisters in the church. But I only had a vague idea of their explanations. As a result, I began to doubt whether the Lord liked me or not, for I had no the enlightenment and guidance of the Holy Spirit, and couldn’t comprehend these mysteries. At the time, I sensed the beautiful dream of entering the kingdom of heaven had gone too far away from me, and I felt rather discouraged. Gradually I got less and less interested in the meetings. In addition, my house was distant from the church after I moved, so I no longer went to the church.
After leaving the Local Church, I felt a bit of disappointment. Was my dream of entering the kingdom of heaven broken in this way? I was not reconciled. Thereupon I started to listen to the sermons given by different shepherds on channel GOOD TV. Once in a while, I would go to attend assemblies when some Christian friends invited me, by which I hoped to better understand the Lord’s words. I still dreamed about perhaps having an opportunity to enter into the kingdom of heaven someday.
Ten years had slipped by. Once while gathering for a meal with my townsmen, I made the acquaintance of Sister Yao in the Lord. That day, she introduced Sister Xu to me. After a brief salutation to each other, we started to share the Bible. Sister Xu shared with me the mystery of God’s six-thousand-year management plan. She said, “After God created man, He planned to get a group of people who are of one heart and mind with Him, and can obey and worship Him, so God began the plan of managing human six thousand years ago. In the Age of Law, God used Moses to set forth laws to tell people how to live. By the end of the Age of Law, people couldn’t observe the laws by degrees, and they faced the danger of being put to death by the law. Therefore, God was incarnated for the first time, was crucified for us human as a sin offering, and redeemed us. From then on, as long as we mankind pray in the name of the Lord Jesus, our sins will be forgiven, and we are qualified to come before God. However, we are forgiven of our sins and no longer condemned by God, but our sinful nature still exists, and we could still involuntarily commit sins and oppose God. So, in order to truly obtain us, God needs to do the work of removing sin. For this reason, in the last days, God became flesh again to express His word, and has done a stage of work of judging and purifying with His words. Only if we get the truth expressed by God as life, get rid of Satan’s bondage, have changes in our life disposition, and become men who fear and , can we be brought into the new heaven and new earth. Therefore, God’s management plan of salvation for us human is divided into three stages, and each stage is the work of salvation carried out upon the foundation of the previous stage. If we merely experience the redemption of the Lord Jesus, but lack the judgment and chastisement of s in the last days, we are unable to be purified and to enter into God’s kingdom.”
After hearing her fellowship, I felt somewhat surprised: How can she expound God’s management in such detail? Isn’t the way of the Local Church the highest? Why have I never heard such preaching in the Local Church before? Is it because I haven’t been to the church for so long that I don’t know God has done the work of judgment and purification? Therewith, I quickly sought what I had been unclear about previously in the Bible with the sister, and she explained them all to me in detail. Seeing that some verses in the Bible, which I couldn’t understand no matter how I had sought before, were explained so plain and easy to understand by her, I was completely convinced. I joked with Sister Xu, “Why not share them with me earlier? They’ve baffled me for so many years.” Sister Xu said, “It is because God Himself reveals the mystery of God’s management plan that we could understand. None knows the mystery other than God.”