By Li Mei, South Korea
Editor’s Note: We all know the road to the heavenly kingdom is tortuous, and is fraught with Satan’s various tests and deceptions. Particularly when some Christians have just accepted Almighty God’s work of the last days, they come across some of Satan’s tests, such as losing their property, suffering illness, and so forth. This is without a doubt a challenge to their faith. Then how should we experience these adversities when faced with them? The author, Li Mei, once had this conundrum. I will share her experience with you, and I hope it will be useful to you.
Seeing Through the Intentions Behind Satan’s Disturbances
In February 2018, I was fortunate enough to accept Almighty God’s work in the last days. In the beginning, my faith was very strong, and I really liked to read God’s words and watch various videos and movies produced by the. However, when I started to go to church meetings, Satan’s tests and attacks came upon me one after another.
On one particular day, my older sister took me to the church and I started to read God’s words there. However, not long after, my eyes began to hurt. At first, I ignored it. But soon they hurt so much that I even couldn’t see the words clearly. Meanwhile, my head began to ache and became ever more painful, which made me unable to sit still. Because of this, I couldn’t help but mutter to myself: “That’s strange. I’ve never been like this, even when I work very hard. Why do my eyes and head hurt this much when reading God’s words?” Then I asked Sister Cao what was going on.
Seeing me in so much pain, she rubbed my temples and fellowshiped this to me: “Sister, when we suffer pain, we should see that behind it there are Satan’s schemes. So we mustn’t complain about God. Let’s read some of God’s words: ‘God works, God cares for a person, looks upon a person, and Satan dogs His every step. Whoever God favors, Satan also watches, trailing along behind. If God wants this person, Satan would do everything in its power to obstruct God, using various evil ways to tempt, harass and wreck the work God does in order to achieve its hidden objective. What is its objective? It does not want God to have anyone; it wants all those that God wants, to occupy them, control them, to take charge of them so they worship it, so they commit evil acts alongside it. Is this not Satan’s sinister motive?’”
She then fellowshiped this: “From God’s words, we can see that God works to save mankind, but Satan is unwilling to see us saved by God. So it follows along at each step of God’s work and disturbs us through various ways. Satan wants to make us doubt God’s almightiness and dominance, lose faith in Him, and be lost in the midst of our misunderstanding of and complaints about Him. If we can’t see the spiritual war that is happening, we will fall prey to Satan’s trickery, thus returning under its domain and losing God’s salvation in the end. This is Satan’s despicable objective. However, God’s wisdom is exercised based on Satan’s schemes. Through Satan’s harassment, God wants us to clearly see its treachery and evil, while at the same time perfecting our faith in Him. As long as we rely on God and look to God more, we will overcome Satan’s testing and see God’s omnipotence and sovereignty.”
After hearing God’s words and Sister Cao’s fellowshiping, I came to realize that Satan just wanted to use the illness to attack me and sow discord between me and God, so as to make me blame God. I must not fall for Satan’s tricks. The more Satan interfered with me, the more I must attend church meetings and read God’s words.
Knowing How to Stand Witness for God in the Spiritual Battle
Then Sister Cao read another passage of God’s words to me: “Through mankind’s cries God gives them what they need, but He does not ‘reside’ within them at first. He just constantly gives them aid because of their cries and people gain hardiness from that internal strength so that Satan dare not come here to ‘play’ at its will. This way, if people constantly connect with God’s Spirit, Satan dare not come to disrupt.”
She continued fellowshiping this: “On the road to following God, we often face attacks from Satan. It’s impossible to fight back against Satan by ourselves. So we must pray to God and depend on Him more. Thus God will give us confidence and power, and help us triumph over Satan’s tests and attacks.”
So I prayed to God: “Almighty God! Satan is making my eyes and head hurt so much that I can’t read Your words. God! May You give me faith, so that no matter how Satan disturbs me, I will stand witness for You and not leave You.” After praying, I really felt that the pain gradually eased off.
However, my head and eyes started aching again as I walked home from the church. What’s worse, I felt so much discomfort in my heart that I could hardly breathe. Then I said to my sister: “Why am I in pain again? If I’m still in pain tomorrow, I won’t go to the church meeting.” As soon as I finished saying that, I realized I had lost witness, and I felt some regrets. After we got home, my sister played a hymn “God’s Love Brings Us Close Together.” I heard these lines: “In negativity and weakness, we support each other. We are together in adversity. Standing witness, we defeat Satan. We escape the darkness and live in the light. …” As I listened, I became relaxed. Meanwhile, my heart no longer felt uncomfortable, and my eyes and head didn’t feel as painful. After a while, Sister Cao called me and asked me how my head was. I then told her about what had just happened. She said: “The more we are attacked by Satan, the more we should pray to God and have faith in Him.” I said with a sigh: “Just now, the pain was so bad that I even forgot to pray to God. My faith in Him is really small.”
Hearing what I said, Sister Cao read me a passage of God’s words: “While undergoing trials, it’s normal for people to be weak, or have negativity within them, or to lack clarity on
Then she fellowshiped this with me: “Satan’s disturbances are authorized by God and they are God’s trials, so experiencing these situations is meaningful. Just like when Satan tempted Job: it was also sanctioned by God. On the surface, Job was stripped of all his wealth and his children by Satan, and even ended up covered with boils. However, within this was God’s good intention—to perfect Job’s faith. From Job’s experience, we can see that though being in pain, he still held on to his integrity and relied on his faith in God to bear a resounding to God. As a result, Satan could do nothing to Job, and had to flee in a panic. After going through the trials, Job obtained anew God’s blessings: He had another seven sons and three daughters and double the fortune he’d originally had. Most importantly, he had more faith in God, and his faith received God’s praise. That’s why he was taken as a model by later generations. Today, when we are faced with illness, we should imitate Job and rely on faith to battle with Satan so as to stand witness for God. If we lose our faith in God, we won’t be able to experience His work and in the end, we won’t see His deeds.”
What she fellowshiped gave me great strength and courage. Compared with Job’s experience, the illness I suffered was nothing. But I had wanted to shrink away from it just because of some fleshly pain. My stature was really too small. After realizing this, I felt very ashamed. So, I said thisto God: “Dear God! I ask that You grant me enough faith and power to fight with Satan to the end. Even if my eyes and head hurt, I will keep on attending church meetings and reading Your words. Even if I can’t read, I will persist in listening to Your words.”
Refusing to Bow to Satan and Thus Seeing God’s Deeds
The next day, when I was going out to the church, I found that I couldn’t get my feet into my shoes as they had become swollen without me realizing it. At that time, I realized that Satan was still attacking me. But then I remembered my experience the night before, and then I wasn’t so negative or retreating and went to church in a pair of loose shoes for the elderly. On the way, I kept praying to God silently, asking Him to protect me from complaining about Him. After reaching the church, I watched a video of recitation of God’s words together with the sisters. However, less than five minutes later, my head started to hurt again, so I stood up. But soon, my feet were so badly swollen that I could hardly keep my balance; meanwhile, my eyes ached more and more. But once I stopped watching the video, my eyes wouldn’t hurt a bit. So I hurried to pray to God in my heart: “O God! Satan is attacking and harassing me over and over, and it just doesn’t want me to believe in You. The previous two times I didn’t stand witness for You due to my lack of faith. This time I must do it. May You guide me.” After praying, I continued to watch the video. When my headache got severe, I stood up; when I couldn’t stand on my feet, I sat down and continued watching it; when my eyes hurt, I listened to the recitation. But before long, I felt uncomfortable in my heart. So my sisters and I prayed to God together. After that, a sister played the movie A Battle for me. When I saw these words of God in this movie, “If, on the road to loving God, you are able to stand on the side of God when He does battle with Satan, and you do not turn back to Satan, then you will have achieved the love of God, and you will have stood firm in your testimony,” I felt even more confident, and so I persisted in watching the movie. Slowly, I actually felt the pain in my head and eyes disappear, and my heart was no longer uncomfortable. When the sisters saw that I had stood witness by depending on God’s words, they all happily thanked God, and I also continuously gave praise to God. At that moment, I felt particularly relieved, peaceful and at ease, as if the door to my heart, which had been tightly closed, was opened.
Gaining a Lot From This Experience
After this spiritual battle, my faith in God increased more. Although Satan used the illness to attack me and obstruct me from believing in God, God sent some sisters to fellowship His words to me all the time, so that I could see through the tricks of Satan and understand God’s will, and then gain faith and power to overcome Satan’s temptations and stand witness. Thank God! At the same time, I gained some discernment of Satan’s sinister and vile motivations. It took advantage of all sorts of means to disturb me in order to make me misunderstand God and lose His salvation in the end. Satan really is extremely evil. Also, I truly experienced the love of God, as well as the authority and power of His words. In spiritual battles, only by depending on God’s words can we overcome and defeat Satan, and feel liberated and at peace. All the glory and praise be to Almighty God! Amen!
Editor’s Conclusion: I believe that after reading about Li Mei’s experience, everybody will understand that on the path to believing in God, behind every adversity that befalls us there is actually an intense spiritual battle, as well as God’s testing of us. So it is necessary for us to maintain our faith in God and stand witness for Him. If you are now experiencing a spiritual battle, and don’t know the way ahead, try relying on your faith in God to experience it and you will see God’s deeds.
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